MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Merry Christmas everyone! Kyle and Bryen had a really great morning, they were so excited last night when we tucked them into bed and told them that Santa was coming. They got up really quickly as soon as we told them to this morning and went straight to the tree where they saw all of their presents..they couldn't wait to start opening them. Bryen is at the point where he recognizes his name from Kyle's so he and Kyle were going through picking out which presents were theirs and getting more and more excited by the minute. When we finally sat down and began opening, they just had so much fun tearing off the wrapping paper. Isn't it horrible how you spend so much time and thought on wrapping all of those beautiful presents only for it to turn into a big jumble of torn and mutilated paper..lol..but it's so grand to watch them to be so happy with what they have been given from "Santa" I remember when we used to have someone play Santa and pass the gifts one by one to each member of the family, but eventually it just turned into a free for all there as well...it was pretty crazy to wait that long as each present was passed out one by one when there were so many people there waiting to get their first present not to mention they had more than one gift to open...it was funny. Anyhow, Kyle and Bryen are busy playing with the puppy and their new toys...I don't think we even had breakfast this morning and it doesn't even seem to phase them one bit. Usually they are asking me for food and ready to eat...maybe that will be all the better for when Christmas dinner is ready to be eaten. Anyhow, I will get back to the Christmas day with my boys...all 3 oh wait gotta include Jax too so...all 4 of them. Have a wonderful Christmas everyone, it is a really special holiday, that I just love the most. ♥♥♥♥

Christmas Eve

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve! I can't believe that it is already here, I am like...what the heck, and then before we know it, it will be 2009! I am excited for a new year at the same time...terrified. Anyhow, I thought that I would get on here and blog some. I am sooo tired lately for some reason, I went to the doctor today to see if there may be something underlying to cause me to be so tired, and the doc ordered a bunch of tests, I have to go when I have been fasting, and I don't really know if they're going to be open tomorrow so...I guess I will just have to wait til after Christmas. I am going to call tomorrow and see if they are open, but I don't know. Jax is getting bigger by the day it seems, he is doing pretty well on the formula that we found the recipe for on the internet. I am so happy that we were able to find that recipe, he seems to really like it. Anyhow, I am going to go now, I just wanted to say a small little bit. LOVES to you! :O)

Baby Puppy

We got a baby puppy on Thursday night, it's mamma was shot and then the babies were found so the guy that shot the mamma was trying to make sure the babies found a good home. I wanted the one we got, I might be crazy, it's alot of work, but I think this little guy is worth it, he's such a cutie, we have to bottle feed him and this picture I have of him was when his eyes were still closed. His eyes are open now, he started to open them on Saturday, he's our little baby. We named him "Jax" I was thinking Jackson, but we decided to go with Jax since we would have ended up calling him that anyway. OK, so I just wanted to share. Love Ya'll

One Of My Pet Peeves

OK, so here is one of my most major pet peeves...when I call my husband at work and he answers and then says "i'll call you back" and hangs up on me...that makes me soooooooo mad! I think that if you can't talk, turn the stoooooopid phone off. Today there is a Christmas party for the command here and I just found out about the details...JUST NOW! I am really irritated because it entails making a dish and bringing gifts for santa to give to the kids and also a gift for the dirty/secret santa or whatever you want to call the gift exchange. I am uncertain if it's due to my husband or if the guy that is supposed to have planned this stuff didn't pass the information to others, but this is rediculous, this isn't the first time, it also happened with the Thanksgiving get together...I didn't have a clue that I was supposed to bring a dish to the Thanksgiving get together!!!! Anyhow, that is all I have to say about that!

Christmas Cards

I may not have all of your addresses and I may need them, just shoot me an email if you don't think I have your address so that I can get a card out to you, and I apologize in advance if I don't get a card to you! Happy Holidays! Here is my email address bethysmiles@yahoo.com THANX!

WEATHER

It is freeeeezing here, I mean...literally, if there is any type of moisture, it freezes on contact, so dangerous on the roads. They let school out early today, and they canceled the field trip they were supposed to go on today. Kyle is somewhat dissapointed but they are going to set up another day to do it before Christmas I guess so that is ok! I am so happy that we have places to stay warm and out of this freakish weather. I can't imagine having no home to keep warm in, my heart goes out to those who have to deal with this unforgiving weather with no home. I would open mine to people, if I honestly thought it would make a difference...but I feel like it would only make things worse for me and my little family opening our home to strangers. RJ has duty tonight so we're going to go over to a friends house and eat dinner with them, it really stinks when RJ has to be away from us for all nighters! We plan to have a good holiday meal here with our friends, hopefully we will make a good dinner and have a good time sharing our holiday time with them. I know you all know what I'm talking about when I say that when you put a group of people together, it doesn't always make for a wonderful time, there is bound to be at least one thing that goes wrong, but you know, most of the time, when you're getting together to have a good time, you do...avoiding any type of blah is always good.

Anyhow, the realtor that we have selling our house has just opened her own agency, she used to be with realty associates and 2 years ago when we bought our home with her as our realtor she was with Re/Max but I think she is really such a great realtor that I believe we will sell quickly and that we will also get what we need to out of the home. I am just very excited...and cold...LOL. take care everyone LOVE 2 U

House

We had pictures taken for a virtual tour today, we went all crazy getting the house ready for them, and I hope that everything came out good. When they post the listing for the house I will try to get the pictures here so you all can see my house. Love all of you! :O)

Here's the link to the tour of our house...YAY!

Virtual Tour

Back 2 Work

OK, first I wanna say I don't want to go back to work, I am feeling very overwhelmed with things that are happening around this place, but I do think I'm doing it to myself, but I also feel that I don't need the added stress of trying to find daycare for my kids while I go to work. ANYWAY, here is what happened, I went to the gastro doc, he decided to do that procedure called the ERCP. I went and had that procedure done and before I even left the hospital I knew that it came back that everything was normal, so...of course I was frustrated and wanted to know what the heck was wrong. On the way home from the hospital, I puked twice, I think it was cuz of the meds that they put in me to sedate me, I don't remember the procedure at all. Anyhow, after a couple days, I felt just fine, and I mean...JUST FINE, no pain really, I don't know what happened, if when they injected the dye that they knocked whatever was causing the problem loose or what, but anyways, I am like...WHA! So, I went back to see the doc for a follow up and told him what's going on, and he said, that he thought it was A stone, that passed and caused these problems in passing, he said that it may happen again and if it does that I should have my gallbladder out because it can cause irreperable damage to my pancreas having attacks. SO...that is where I am with that whole escapade...at least for now. I am supposed to go back to work on Thursday, yes I will, but I think that it's time that I move on. I have enjoyed being able to stay home with Bryen while Kyle has gone to school and relaxing a bit, I do feel sorta lazy, but I think it's better that specially for now, I need to not have that added to things I worry about. RJ got orders, we are supposed to be moving from Missouri to Cali next year, that is what I'm stressed about, but not as much as getting this house sold before then. I don't know how well the market is sustaining itself here, we do sort of have a micro community, but I just don't know you know. I'm nervous about that, and I really want to know that everything is going to work out the way we want it to, but you know what I have learned, everything doesn't always go the way you want it to. I'm just thinking things over and over and over in my mind, and you know what, I don't know how to quit my job. I mean, I have had to quit jobs before, but this is one that I have loved, and I really don't want to leave, but at the same time I do, the entire time I have had this job it has been a nightmare to try to keep daycare, and it's because of the irregular hours that I work, so if I were to try to keep steady daycare, I wouldn't be making enough to even pay for the daycare so it would be a waste. Anyway, I have gotten frustrated with some things at work too so it's time to move on! I gotta run, Bryen needs something to drink and I gotta get off this computer. LOL I love you my family...Heather, before we have to move back to cali we need to set something up to get together or something, I don't want to go all the way back over there without seeing you. Maybe Christmas time or something, I think RJ is planning to take leave...but dangit, we have a Jeff Dunham show in Kansas City on Dec 27th...we'll figure something out. Love From Me

Yicky Beffy

I saw the Gastro doc about a week and half ago, he decided that he needed to take a look at my pancreas with a procedure where they stick a camera down inside me and look at it up close and personal. I had a procedure they call ERCP yesterday and today I am feeling like crud. Gosh, I specially hurt in the area right underneath my chest almost like my lungs are being crunched somehow or something, and it hurts all the way around into my back...UGH! Anyway, just so you all know what's going on at least up to this point...ugh. I'm so frustrated I don't know what the problem is and this is all very tiring and frustrating. I don't know what to expect from this point, I figured that with this procedure they would have found something and since they didn't I don't know what the deal is...ok, I gotta go, Bryen needs a MAJOR butt kicking!

Results...and then

Hey everyone, I got my results, on Wednesday the 12th, sorry, I'm such a slacker. The results for the ultra sounds were that everything innard that I have minus the ovary(i don't think I spelled that right)with the cyst is absolutely fine. When they told me originally that I had pancreatitis, that was in fact not even completely true because when they had done the CT scan that night it showed that there was absolutely nothing going on with the pancreas, so I don't know why my amilase and lypase were elevated but...anyway...there is more to the story. REGARDLESS of the results and them telling me that I'm fine, I am in pain...I don't like to be in pain, and I have told them that I am in pain. When I saw the "practitioner" that told me there was nothing wrong and that cysts are a normal occurance in women (LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW THAT) I just chaulked it up to me being over sensitive...so I took that and went home. Luckily before I went and saw that "practitioner" I had tried to get ahold of my actual PCM and so...shortly after I got home from being told there was no problem...my PCM called me and told me she had taken a look at my results and that my cyst was larger than they like to see so they would like to keep and eye on it...UGH...I do not like getting different stories specially when it comes to MY health...not cool! ANYWAY, I went to the ER again yesterday, I sat there for hours in pain, and they did all these tests to see if they could figure out why I am having pain, and nothing is abnormal, my blood count is good, which I am happy to hear, but I still wanna know why I'm in pain. They're sending me to a Gastroenternologist, I don't know when, or if they're even going to actually put that referral in the computer. At this point, I'm kind of just really ready to GIVE UP and just deal with the pain, it's alot easier than trying to deal with people who don't seem to care wether you live or die. UGH...I know that isn't really true, but I just get so frustrated. Anyhow, so now I have Vicodin to take, and Ibuprofen, and am waiting for a phone call from the referral office for when my apt with the Gastro doc will be. I appreciate you keeping tabs on me Ramanda, you're a sweetie pie and a good friend! I will try to do better as far as keeping you up to date. OH, the fact that everything came back normal in my blood and all of that is definately a good thing though eh?! :O) ttyl

HEYA

Yea, I had my ultra sounds, and I still don't have the results...I'm calling all day today to see if I can get an apt to get the results from which ever doc I can get in to see, THIS IS REDICULOUS! I get the impression that they just don't care about me, no compassion, whatever, I'm sure that is false but, how else am I supposed to feel when no one seems to be willing to help me, and I'm only one person you know. UGH, I'm so frustrated right now I could just SPIT! Anyway, my work called and said that if I felt good enough to come in for a couple of short days this week in the office I could do that, and so I am going to be going in tomorrow and the next day to do some office stuff and I'm just PRAYING, that I can get a phone call from someone at the hospital with something...I hate waiting and most of all I hate not knowing what is going on, last night I was doing the dishes and about fell over with a shooting searing pain in my upper abdomen, and I was having a hard time breathing and RJ was about to flip out because he was yelling "WHAT'S WRONG" and I couldn't answer because I couldn't get a big enough breath in to talk to him...NOT GOOD! I am like...c'mon people, it's not like I'm gonna die, but it doesn't mean it's any less important! I just wanted to get ya'll an update, if you're even following this...sheesh..hehe, ttyl :O)

Ultra Sounds

OK, well, I went to have my ultra sounds today, the first I had to stop eating and drinking at 12 the night before, so I was really thirsty by the time we finished...this one was upper abdomen area looking for galstones. The others were checking out the mass that was on my uterus that they found in the CT scan. So, in all likliness the mass is just a cyst, but what if....you know. Anyhow, at this point, after having all of these ultra sounds done in the same day, the results will not be accessible until TUESDAY, and I am at this point, still not working and just sitting by and waiting. The hospital here is so understaffed they say "due to deployments bla bla bla" they are working on the problem, until there, we're SCREWED! I don't know if I'm going to be able to get an apt to find out the results of my ultra sound but I'm just really wondering if they even stop to think that maybe there may be a reason that this person would like to know...you know...like because maybe their health might be kind of important to them...you know. UGH, anyway, I could go to the ER again, my ear has been aching for the past two days and it is really really ouchie, what's wierd, is RJ's ear is bothering him really badly too, and it's the same ear as mine...STRANGE BUSINESS! Anyhow, RJ said he's not gonng go sit in the ER for hours on end for an ear ache, I say to hell with it, that's what they're there for.....UGH! Well, I'm frustrated because I haven't been working and that is going to leave us at a shortge of funds, but actually, I think it's good that we can see if we are able to handle things without me working because...I'll explain that to you.

I was at work the last day I worked before I got sick...Thursday August 28th, when on the clinic I must have been feeling bad without realizing it cuz when the doctor decided he was going to get frustrated with me and act on that frustration by talking down to me, I started to cry, not right in front of him of course, but it really was totally uncalled for and there are much much better ways to go about things than the way he chose to deal with it. Anyway, I cried, got over that and went through the rest of the day doing the best that I could, in the meantime of course in the back of my mind I am thinking, I NEED A NEW JOB, because seriously, when you feel like you have an tense work enviornment, it doesn't make for a good day EVER! UGH, let me tell you what happened, it kind of sounds trivial, which is why I think I may have been starting to get sick because normally I wouldn't have cried at this, I just would have gotten pissed. Anyway, usually when I'm on the clinic doing cleanings etc. the Dr comes and looks at the kids mouths and then you go from there, sometimes he does it before you clean them, and sometimes he does it after you clean them, first thing you do, is take x rays if they're needed. Anyway, he came over and I hadn't gotten to the cleaning part yet, so I asked him, would you like me to clean her teeth...then right there in front of the patient, he looked at me...of course with annoyance, and said "WHAT DO WE DO...WE TAKE THE X RAYS AND THEN I COME AND LOOK AT THEIR TEETH AND THEN WE GO FROM THERE" I was like...WHAT THE HELL! I wish that I hadn't cried though, it just makes me look weak, and I'm no weakling...I just think he shouldn't have done that in front of the patient and then no apology or anything, just rediculous. ANYWAY, I'm over it, I have been looking for a new job, after buying all these scrubs and stuff, I'm hoping that I can get on as a dental assistant somewhere else, with someone who is less likely to get upset with me and has patience and is willing to train me. I have been emailing a guy back and forth about possible job interview, here in St. Robert, where I live which would be GREAT, closer to home and less for gas and also it would be on a daily basis not just 3 days a week or so. I am so ready to be done with this wishy washy do one thing one way one minute and then change their minds and decide to do it differently the next minute, it's just outright frustrating and a really lousy working enviornment. Sometimes I feel like I'm on eggshells, and then with something so small as a question is deemed to warrant a response such as the one the Dr gave me, I am ready to move on to something else. Anyway, UGH, I didn't really want to go into all of that, but I guess it is a better way for you to feel the frustration and now to know why it is happening. My schedule at this job has never been more than 3 days in a week, and my position is classified as "Irregular Part Time" and so I guess that means that I'm expendable....I don't know, Dorothy has gone as far as to call me their utility worker, which I guess I should take as a compliment, meaning I can do everything and I am flexible, but....seriously, when I am "supposedly" doing such a good job and they ask me why I am late but then they say they understand some things because they knew I had kids when they hired me...WHAT THE HELL IS THAT...I MEAN...SERIOUSLY PEOPLE! Anyway, I'm ready for something steady, and when I'm actually doing the assisting on a daily basis I will get good. I was talking to someone about going through the class that they offer for dental assisting on the post here, and they said that one of their friends did it, and when they got a job after they finished certifying, it was like they had never taken the course at all, it was like starting all over again because they felt like they were learning the stuff all over again, so I'm thinking that the way I'm learning is a little better, but you do have to have fundamentals that I don't quite have down yet, however, I have office experience etc as well as the assisting, so I'm pretty well qualified I'd say. Anyway, ya'll take care, I'm gonna stop nagging now, ttyl :O)

A Day In The Life

So, I got in to see the doc, she said that I "DON'T" have gall stones. I can't help thinking that is funny cuz when I was in the ER originally they said that I had to get an ultra sound to tell if I had gall stones..things that make you go hmmm. I am feeling much better, after having two bags of IV fluid put into me on Monday. I went to the doc on Tuesday and that is when she told me that, and also a few other things, bla bla bla, doctor mumbo jumbo, and then she ordered the ultra soundSSS yes...plural. I figured they would have ordered the ultra sounds that I needed from the ER, but I guess NOT! I could not get the ultra sounds scheduled until Friday September 12th, and until then I'm out of work because they don't want me to come into work and have an episode while I'm there...safety and legal reprocussions avoided. I am still having sharp pains here and there in my abdomen, but I am eating actual food again. ANYWAY...on to other things, cuz right now it's just a waiting game until we can find out more.

I have changed from one garbage company to another one that is just moving into our area, because they have ONE big trash can with wheels and a lid that can't be knocked off by raccoons. We were having alot of trouble with animals coming and getting into our trash before, and now it's not a problem...HOWEVER, I got my first bill from them intending it to be a certain amount, they told me ahead of time that I would only be charged for 2 months, one thing they didn't tell me is that they charge for GAS..WHAT?! I didn't know what the heck that was and it really ticked me off so I called them and asked about it and they told me that everyone has to pay that. When I was getting ready to sign up with them initially, I had told some friends about it, how cool I thought it was and everything, and then, I get this bill...by the time I got this bill, one of my friends I had told about it had already signed up with them and pre paid 3 months in advance...anyhow...when I told her about the gas surcharge, she was stunned because she didn't have to pay it...I was like..WHAT? I decided that I was going to give the questioning of the company another go, and I told them that I have a friend that signed up with them just recently because I had told her about them and that she doesn't have to pay the gas surcharge, and I was wondering why...so guess what, I don't have the charge anymore...LOL. I think it's rediculous though that they did not say, there is a fee for the gas that will be used in the trucks when they come to pick up your trash, I was really unhappy, and it is only a small amount, but all in all, it makes a difference, and I did no intend to have that there and one of the main reasons I signed up in the first place was that it was going to be a little cheaper than the company we were with before, even with the rental of their trash can. I'm pretty stoked about how that turned out. Anyhow, it's silly, but I have to do something around here that makes me feel accomplished. ttyl :O)

Pancreatitis

Yea, that's what I have. They told me that on Friday, and I had to drink some gross stuff they called contrast to see what was going on inside my body, and then I had a ct scan and then they put me on a liquid diet, and then yesterday I went back in to get IV fluids because I was dehydrated. Now I have a HUGE bruise on my arm from where this kid who OBVIOUSLY wasn't good at taking blood and what not tried to get a vein for the IV. I am so frustrated, today they are supposed to call me to get an ultrasound to see if I have gall stones that caused the pancreatitis or what UGH! Anyhow, wanted to let you all know what's goin on! ttyl

Kirby Vacuums

UGH...we had these people stop by our house yesterday, they were offering a free shampoo and vacuum cleaner presentation all we had to do was answer 10 quick questions and let them clean our carpet. I wasn't sure what exactly I should do, but you know getting a free carpet shampoo was definately something that made my eyes widen I'm sure, cuz it just sounds so fantastic...like they're going to do it while I watch...OH HOW LOVELY! Anyhow, so I told them yes, when the guy came in with the vacuum I didn't know until I looked at the box that he was carrying that they were Kirby sales people...first thought in mind "OH GRRRRREAT!" I remember these guys, they came in my house when I was younger and sold a 2000.00 vacuum to my dad, and you know, I have always thought there was some gimick to it..like those Kirby vacuums are so much better than all the others...WHATEVER, they have great marketing though, it's just a rip off as far as I'm concerned but hey, I was willing to let him come in a clean my carpet for free....thinking it would be worth my time. When Kirby comes in your house, they ask you to vacuum with yours first and then they take the example one they bring and go over that same area, with theirs and instead of using a bag they put a whit piece of paper or whatever that stuff is, so they can show you how much more they're picking up even after you've already gone over that area with your vacuum, in my opinion this is where the gimick comes in, I totally think those things are rigged some how. ANYWAY, of course he picked up dirt and stuff, and showed it to us, bla bla bla, but when he asked me how happy I was with my vacuum, I told him "I LOVE MY VACUUM, are you gonna make fun of my vacuum?" lol...he said he wouldn't since I seem to like my vacuum so much, and right there I gave him my answer to the all powerful "are you interested" question...he knew that we were not potential buyers...made things alot easier..even though he knew that (cuz he said, "I'm guessing you're not gonna buy, am I right") he still went ahead and cleaned the carpet...but you know what...IT STILL LEFT SPOTS...they claimed to have been able to get spaghetti sauce out of the carpet...NOT IF THEY CAN'T GET ONE LITTLE FRIGGIN' KOOL-AID SPOT OUT! UGH, I was so frustrated at that, it was a foam cleaner bla bla bla, but I have my own cleaner and a green little green spot cleaner that I absolutely love, and they're both from BISSELL...ANYHOW...he did his little presentation and the Kirby vacuum cleaner did the foam carpet cleaner stuff...you let it sit for a few minutes and then vacuum over where you cleaned with the foam cleaner set up bla bla bla...and when he was done of course we went through the motions...cuz he has to, and then he left...when he was giving his presentation he took a few of those little white things that he was picking up the "excess dirt" (that my vacuum supposedly didn't pick up) and asked us to try and rip them in half...didn't work, they're made out of some sort of material that is pretty tough..so anyway, we couldn't rip those in half, but...he must have forgotten to pick those up upon leaving because we had them after he left...RJ thought he would like to try that dirt thing with my vacuum, and guess what....when he did it with mine, those things were still showing that there was GOBS of dirt on the floor...with MY vacuum...even after going over it once with my vacuum, twice with the Kirby and cleaning it..I DON'T THINK SO! I just love my vacuum and I'm so glad that I am not a succor, those vacuums are so not worth the amount they charge for them. Anyhow, I just wanted to share this, with those of you who might have Kirby salesman come to your door, it's a big fat lie, and they're just good salespeople. Here's a picture of my vacuum, it's a Bissell Healthy Home and I am absolutely satisfied with it's performance! ttyl :O)

Fun Day Out

My girlfriend (Katie) and I went out with our boys and saw the hulk, elmo, and dora at the PX here on Ft. Leonard Wood, it was a really fun day....MORE TO COME ON THAT SAME DAY! :O)

Turtle

RJ was out mowing the lawn and he was moving some big rocks, when he lifted one of them up, he found this cute little turtle underneath it. The turtle had made a home under the rock but they picked it up and brought it in. We kept the little (I think it was a girl) girl for a little bit but I eventually decided it was better for that poor wittle thing to stay in it's original habitat. I don't know if it moved on since then, but Kyle has been going out and checking every day to see if she is there. Anyhow, here's the pictures of that...so fun!

Water Park

They put in a new water park not long ago here at the Roubidoux park in Waynesville, and we took the kids to play one day. I just haven't gotten to putting the pictures on until now so I figured it would be nice to let ya'll see. There are some of the neighbors kids, Kyle's friend Anthony and her daughter Leah. I also went another time with both Bryen and Kyle and our friends Katie and her boys Noah and Samuel, it was lots of fun to watch the kids having fun playing in the water. :O)

HOLY CRAP!

I thought yesterday was a lazy day, today has been one of the laziest days EVER!!!! I have done nothing but talk on the phone and watch tv, and play on this gosh dern thing all day! I even didn't make my kids lunch til just like 10 minutes ago...isn't that friggin' pathetic. I mean, what kind of mother am I when my kids have to remind me to make them lunch and that they do get hungry...UGH! OH WELL, I mean, they're fed so, they don't hate me yet! I was talking to Kyle as I was making him lunch and I said "I've spent to much time on the computer today huh?" and he just says "yep" as he stirred the mac n' cheese...lol..he loves to help, I think he feels like he needs to be able to do more than we allow, but I still feel that he is still a little young to do some things...he can take the trash out and stuff like that...I don't know, I don't know how old he should be really before I start making him do stuff. I think I'm WAY to picky to have anyone help me, and I think that is maybe why RJ doesn't help much around the house because when he does try to I just gripe about him folding stuff wrong, or putting it in the wrong place, but you know, when things get done I really do appreciate it, even if it isn't EXACTLY the way I want it. Anyhow, I gotta make sure to pick this place up, sitting in front of the computer has it's drawbacks, you can't watch what your kids are doing when you're looking at the computer screen and they have totally RAN SACKED the place. Take Care everyone, I will write more later...OH OH, I would like to welcome my sister Cherylto the blogging family and community...HAHA! Love You

Blog Award

My big sis Heather gave me an award, I love her, and she is a good big sis. She said that I keep her laughing and I think she is pretty funny too sometimes, ttya'll later. ♥

There are rules to this award.
1. Post the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who nominated you.
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I present this award to:

Ramanda Because she is one of my bestest friends ever and I hope that we remain in contact with one another, and because I think that her blog deserves recognition and lastly, you're definately easy on the eyes girlie...I think you're absolutely beautiful! *mwah*
Sharida Because through thick and thin this girl is always a very dedicated and good friend to me, and I truly don't deserve such a good friend. Luv Ya
AND
CHERYL Because no matter what I do, I just can't shake the thought of you because you're my sis...haha! LOVE YOU CHERYL!!!!

Bruise Pics

OI, so here's the pics I told ya I would get on here, I just can't believe I did that to meself...yup, I'm an idiot! ttyl :O)

Playing Softball

OH MAMA Softball can be brutal, I have this huge bruise on my forearm from not trying to catch a fly ball the correct way...yichee wa wa! I took pictures of it but my cameras battery needs to be charged before I can upload so, I'll be posting them later, but anyhow, when the ball first hit I didn't realize the damage I did until a few minutes after, and then I was like...ACK, CRAP, it hurts...and now it's all purple and black and blue...lol...the woes of playing ball right?! Anyhow, that was just practice, and then after the practice ended I went to watch RJ's game and ended up playing with them because they didn't have enough people! I had alot of fun, I love playing ball...I feel kind of out of the loop though playing with the girls team, but we'll see what happens tonight. I'm not actually on the team per say, but I have gone to a couple of their practices and so I kinda feel like I can handle it...if I suck, I suck, at least I was trying to help them out eh?! LOL...ok, anyway, I will get those pictures on here a little later on, ttya'll lata :O)

I've Been Tagged

*3 JOYS
My 3 Boys/Family
Listening to good music
Hanging out with good friends

*3 Fears
An Early Demise
Losing someone you love dearly...not necessarily just to death but in some other way you know like...when human emotion or behavior makes you do things you wouldn't have done in any normal or other situations.
One of my children in danger and being completely powerless to protect them...that is a HUGE ONE!

*3 Goals
Get active in church
Become more finacially savvy
Be a good parent to my children, so that when they are older they know they can confide in me, regardless of how I may or may not react.

*3 Current Obsessions/Collections
I AM OBSESSED WITH Stephenie Meyer's "Twilight" Series of books
I LOVE WOLVES, our entire lvng room is wolves
I seem to be obsessed with food and collecting more and more weight as days go by...haha

*3 Random/Surprising Facts
LOL...on Heather's blog, she wrote that she has a scar on her hand from where a cat bit her because her sister put kerosene on the cat to kill the fleas...YOU GUESSED IT..IT WAS ME!!!! I did not intend...of course, for anyone to get hurt, least of all Heather...I thought for sure it would work the same way as it did for us in killing our damn lice that we kept on getting repeatedly from those unsanitary people who can't seem to get RID of theirs and keep passing them on to their unsuspecting classmates...sick!
I don't think I'm quite as accident prone as I was when I was younger...ther are still the occasional idiot moves I do whip out...but...for the most part, I'm pretty safe. LOL
I enjoy road trips...I think they would (of course) be much more enjoyable if there was an endless supply of money to fund them, no worries...that sort of thing, otherwise, they are sooooo great! Seeing sights bla bla bla, it's really nice!

Post these rules on your blog. List 3 Joys, 3 Fears, 3 Goals, 3 Current Obsessions/Collections and 3 Random/Surprising facts. Tag 5 people at the end of your post by leaving their names. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog

I TAG MANDA, SHARIDA, and CHELSEA

Kyle's T-Ball 2008

I think that my mind is going...NO SERIOUSLY!!!! I was supposed to remember Kyle's little trophy ceremony/barbecue for his T-Ball season today, it was from 1-3 and I didn't realize that we were missing it until 2:20, what kind of bad parent am I?! UGH, I couldn't believe that, I was so angry with myself. So anyhow, we went and got his little trophy and the team picture..it was such a good thing I remembered before it was all over. I think Kyle won't really remember, he'll know that we made it there, at least in time to get his stuff and some sodas and a few chips...I'm just totally erked, I even marked it on my calendar that I usually check everyday and I have the flyer they passed out at the last T-Ball game on the side of the fridge that you would see as you walk into the kitchen, I felt terrible...ugh, anyway, no use crying over spilt milk. I will blog more later, I have a small dilemma, a friend has invited me to a Mary Kay party, which I would love to go to, specially if I had money to buy stuff, but I don't and so I feel like I shouldn't really go if I don't intend to buy anything, except that she and I are good friends and I love to hang out with...BUT also, there is another of our friends whos hubby is on duty all night into tomorrow morning that asked us to come to her house for dinner to give her some company...I feel so idiotic...I always do this type of thing to myself. Anyhow, I'll figure it out! ttyl :O)

Car

I am going to the dealership to get some final fixes on my car before the warranty runs out. I think one of the repairs that they are going to do isn't covered under the warranty which sucks but...ack, we'll just get it done cuz it needs to be done. That part kind of stinks but, it just I guess no matter how good of a warranty you think you have there's always gonna be something missing from it. Anyway, I just wanted to stop in and say a quick hello and tell you what I'm doing with part of my day today, before I have to RUN like a chicken with it's head cut off to get everything done, oh oh, and I'm meeting a friend that I haven't seen in like FOREVER so it's gonna be a good day! ttyl :O)

I thought I should let ya'll know, I didn't end up having to pay A DIME for any of the work that they did on my car, it was so awesome, I was so happy to find out that the part he thought wasn't covered under the warranty actually was, YAY! Anyhow, have a good one! :O)

RJ's Up for Re-Enlistment

OK, so it's that time again, for us to re enlist in the Navy, usually when that time comes you get some sort of bonus, they call it an SRB...don't ask me what it stand for cuz I don't know..lol..all I know is we usually get CHA CHING $. As I said, "USUALLY" for some reason, this time around they have told RJ that the possibility of the SRB is questionable because of this being an election year, etc..AND he took the chief exam not long ago, if he makes chief, he will not be eligible for an SRB...FANTASTIC right! I kinda figure, why should we re enlist for him to go through more time away from his family..BLA BLA BLA if they aren't going to give us something more for the service that he provides...yea, I know, I'm whining, but really, isn't it a deserved allowance that they should get a reward for years of service prior to signing on for more years of service to the United States and the US Government? UGH, I am more frustrated with the fact that we kind of counted on making more off the sale of the house, and that way we could actually...MAYBE enjoy the SRB that we were thinking we were almost garaunteed....NOT. UGH, it's hard, such is life eh?! Anyhow, RJ will be making more money if he makes chief but it's hard for me to wait...we say the military is "hurry up and wait" lol! Sometimes, I wish life was a little easier, when cost of living and gas and grocery goes up, so does the pay you reiceive for it all so that you won't go broke just trying to make it through day to day...I'm kinda erked. I really like to gripe and moan, can ya tell? lol NO, not really, it's just an easy thing to do when things don't go the way that I have planned for. Originally they had told RJ that he was going to get 22,000 but we don't know if it's going to go up, or go down, or go away all together, I HATE WAITING! I like being able to set up a plan and have more of an idea of what is going to happen vs waiting to see...I KNOW, I have been married to him for 8 years and I should be used to the way things work by now, but um...I can tell you, you never really get used to it, you just kinda learn to go with it even if it pisses you off every time something is supposed to be a certain way and it doesn't always turn out to be that way. Well, I do hope that things go the way that we have forseen, at least, a little something so that we can get our heads above water, cuz right now, it kinda feels like we're drowning (I'm talking hypothetically of course). We did do it to ourselves, it's certainly no ones fault but our own, but dangit..LOL. UGH, Bryen's got the sugar, ttyl :O)

$

I kinda figure this a question most people ask themselves, and I am asking myself that in my blog for ya'll to see....Where'd the $ go?!

Work Days

It seems like the days I work are soooooo long. I am really enjoying the job that I have and stuff, but it just seems like that by the time I'm done with a day of work and get home, I'm just SO TIRED! WELL, THERE GOES BRYEN...AGAIN! lata :O)

DayCare Issues

I hate it when I have daycare issues, I just have to talk about it a little bit. It seems like in the amount of time that I have had this job I have now (a little over a year) I have had 4 different daycare people...isn't that just rediculous?! 4 differnt daycares...NO make that 5 in a little over a year. The first one is a friend of mine, she got a job, and she gave me 2 weeks to find someone else, so I did, and I appreciate the fact that she at least gave me some time...the next girl, worked out for a while, but then, one day, she decided that she was gonna move and didn't think it important to tell me until Monday...and she was moving on Wednesday...what the hell is that?! I'm like, common courtesy says...you give at least a weeks notice...SHEESH! OK, then the next lady, she did it from her home, and so I just figured that it would be great, that she would continue to do it for me regardless of Bryen's sometimes outlandish behavior...however, one day while I was at work, I thought I would call and check up on things, and she said to me "I'm getting tired of his hittin' and kickin' me" I told her that we would have to talk about it later, but...I wasn't about to leave my kids with her any longer, to me that came across as though she can't handle him and that she was getting to the end of her rope, so I called RJ and had him go get the kids, I was really upset, and I think it just radiated to RJ because when he got there to get the kids, he let the lady have it...but reamed her good. She called me after he left, I had to go and pay her once I got back from work still...and she called me all upset about his behavior...I was like...well, he was upset because I was upset because it came across like you were going to snap on my child, and that is not how a supposed "child care professional" is supposed to act...I guess when she and RJ were exchanging words, she said "well I guess you just lost your daycare" and then RJ retorted with "good we weren't gonna bring them back anyway" LOL...I mean, my main issue with her talking to about my children like that is...she is supposed to have th knowhow to deal with bad behavior...just a little rediculous. ANYHOW, now, they are with a friend of ours, she is watching them for me as needed and she just kind of goes with the flow...she doesn't seem to be bothered by Bryen's behavior as much, and I don't know if it's because she just knows how to deal with him now, or if she just doesn't say anything to me about it, but I'm certainly content with having someone I feel more comfertable with. I am just sitting here thinking about it, and I feel like such a loser sometimes, when I can't keep child care, and I feel it is responsible to tell my employer that I have ONCE AGAIN lost childcare and I need to find someone new just in case I'm unable to work...they have been so great about it, they continually tell me that they knew that when they hired me, and they completely understand and they have been so flexible and just great with me. I honestly don't think that I would ever have had this opportunity to learn the things that I'm learning with this job anywhere else, I'm so happy to be able to have this opportunity, even though I can't stay forever. Well...anyway, what got me started on this, was thinking about my friend that is watching them now, she is getting ready to go on vacation, which is totally fine...of course...but I am trying to figure out what I'm gonna do while she's away (which I will of course) I have always seemed to be able to figure something out. The difficulty with the job that I have and keeping childcare, is that I don't work enough to put them in full time positions for childcare because the childcare would offset what I make by so much that we would be paying for me to work...that's totally against the idea of my working, I'm supposed to be able to bring in some extra money. Anyhow, I will let you go, that it just a little bit of rant and rave from the bethster...teehee

4th of July 2008

We had such a good time setting off fireworks and hanging out with friends last night! I hope that you all had a great and happy 4th, it's always so fun to do holidays with people you love. I wish that I were closer to my family in Utah and Montana. This year for our celebration we had a friend that just happened to be pretty tight with a guy that owns a firework stand, and so pretty much for every 1 that they bought they gave them free stuff, it was really cool! We have the coolest fireworks here too...I guess that is one of the pluses about Missouri, sorry Missouri lovers, I just really don't like it much here, other than my job and the fact that we have been able to buy a house. ANYWAY, we had a really great time last night, and yes, we did spend ALOT of $ on those fireworks but they would have been FAR FAR more expensive if we didn't have that hookup through RJ's co worker. Well, I'm off, I hope everyone takes care, ttyl :O)

Twilight Series

I have recently started reading these books, they're called "Twilight" "New Moon" "Eclipse" and there is a fourth one of the series that hasn't come out yet and won't until August. I'm waiting for that one eagerly...I read the first 3 in a total of 7 days...just crazy...I haven't read books since I was in school...and yea, I have been out of High School for more than 10 years...YIKES...hate thinking about that fact! ANYHOW..."Twilight" is such a good book, it pulls you in and is such a good story with a powerful and forbidden romance..oh so good. I don't want to tell the story, but..I can just tell you that they are well worth the read, it's pure fiction..but highly enjoyable, the way that Stephenie Meyer can depict the emotions of the characters in her books is just awesome, and I have been compelled...not that compelling me is a difficult thing to do..haha!




We started to look into how much we might be able to get out of our house if we were to sell it....the outlook is not as great as what we were thinking. I am hopeful that we can at least walk away from the house breaking even...if we can at least, at least do that then we'll be ok...we put alot of money(that we didn't have) into finishing this basement thinking that it would add to the value of our house...that is kind of frustrating but...we still have some time. My main concern is that I will be stuck here after RJ has to go ahead to the next duty station, cuz we know the government owns him and so he must do what they say.




I'm gonna get going, thanx for readin, hope it's kind of interesting...and...READ THOSE BOOKS! They're really really good...seriously...no lie! haha, ttyl :O)

TV

There was a problem with our dish starting on Tuesday...LAST WEEK. I had to got to work the morning it started having issues so I couldn't stay and try to figure it out that day. Anyway, turns out we had NO tv at all for 5 days, they were supposed to send a tech out to work on it on Friday, and because of the weather they didn't...so we were stuck waiting until TOMORROW...which would make it a full week without TV. Anyhow, my point of talking about this, is that you don't really realize how dependant you are on the boob tube until you don't have to park your butt in front of. It's amazing how much time it actually monopolizes in your life...you don't realize it until it's gone. I don't really think it's one of those you don't know what you have til it's gone type of things, I think it's more, why the hell do we have this crap type of thing, it's like...we're living our lives through television or something, I mean, that is pretty much what we do when our son doesn't have a tball game or something like that...UGH, anyway, Bryen is getting into stuff...AGAIN, so I have to go and kick his little 3 yr old butt...ttyl :O)

HELLO

This is just a little hello to all blogspotters. My sister talked me into it, I already have a myspace but...I guess it just wasn't enough...haha. Anyhow, cya