Mi Spectacles

Here is a picture I took of myself shortly after picking up my glasses, I only need them to drive and such doing things far away, I am slightly near sighted so...anyway, I hope you enjoy it! LOL

Bryen Accident Prone

Our newly operated on Bryen decided he was going to play with a golf ball, throwing it up and trying to catch it. We were not aware of him doing this until he came inside the house to show us what happened...and the evidence is on his forehead..LOL!

Hi

Bryen had a tonsilectomy and adenoidectomy on the October 7th. He is still recooping and the doc said that he wouldn't be able to go back to school until the 20th. I'm glad that we got it overwith quickly though cuz I didn't want it to interfere with Bryen's birthday or his Halloween fun! I just wanted to let you all know that, I haven't been sharing much lately. I did get an awesome picture of Bryen on his "hydrocodone" they gave him...LOL...but it got deleted, I was so pissed..but what can you do.

Today is such a dreary day, it is windy, and blowing leaves off the trees all over the place, and the rain is coming and going and has been all day long...it's icky...but at the same time nice...does that make any sense? I don't know who it was that thought up the idea of having a holiday like Halloween around this time of year, but it is ABSOLUTELY PERFECT! I wish I had some pictures to post on here right now...I'll just post some random pic...how bout that...hehe. Loves 2 U

Chief Select

So, RJ was selected for chief, which means that he will be a confirmed "CHIEF" petty officer in the Navy once he finishes a process that is much like an intiation into a fraternity or something similar. I guess i thought that he would be home more than he is right now, it is only a 6 week process...but in just the first few weeks already, RJ has lost weight and been extremely tired...I'm just about the same....I had to unpack boxes, put beds together, get rid of the boxes, and alot of other stuff ALONE because RJ was not available to help...he still isn't but I think he has less than 3 weeks left in the "initiation". I will be so relieved when this whole thing is over, but then...but then...they're talking about sending him back up to water well school which is up in China Lake, California, a ways away from here. I will not know what to do exactly when he isn't here every night, I do at least get that little bit right now, even though he is so tired that he wants to just sleep, I don't know what I'll do when he isn't around AT ALL! Ugh, I am so nervous about all of this, he will deploy next year, and I am most certainly NOT looking forward to that, but I know it will be somewhat easier to keep myself together because I have the two boys and by that point they will have started school again for the next year. I am really worried about my boys' education, I don't know how they're really doing in School because I'm not there, and I have a hard time with that. Kyle is having a rough time with spelling he isn't lacking so much in the reading department but spelling really is just proving VERY difficult for him. Bryen has already made his teacher feel that she needed to call me to get some pointers on how to get him to cooperate with her in the classroom...I can't give pointers...geez, Bryen doesn't listen to me either...LOL! I think mainly that is what I am concerned about, Bryen, how he will be when RJ is gone...for a week while RJ was in China Lake before they pulled him out of school to bring him down here, for that week, Bryen had started to pee his pants during the day...I am so worried that he may do that same type of behavior when RJ isn't around at all if they send him back up to China Lake...and then deployment. Anyhow, I guess this is just a bunch of complaining but, I think it's just alot of stuff that I need to get out. Right now, RJ is sitting next to me in his recliner, the tv is on but nither one of us are watching it, he is working on a task that they gave him for his "initiation" and I am doing this my blog. I almost started to cry when I was thinking about deployment, oh, here I go again, it's been a long...LONG time, we have been lucky, since we went to Iceland for sea duty and then were in Missouri for a shore duty we had 6 years there and then here he won't deploy until next September so that will be another year so by the time he does deploy again it will have been 7 years since we had been seperated for more than a week...it's gonna be rough...I know it. UGH, I gotta stop thinking about that, it's still over a year away. Anyhow, I love you my family, and to my friends, you're awesome. Have a good one. :o)

Port Hueneme California

Here we are, in Pt. Hueneme, the weather is AWESOME, we are loving that part of it at least. I have been unpacking since we got into the house last Tuesday...we have had some friends that we knew in Iceland that are also stationed here stop by, it's good to have some people we know around. I am hating the unpacking, the packers just put stuff here and there an everywhere, like the phone was in one box and the charger for the phone was in another, it's really difficult, having to go through all of this stuff..but in a way it's good too though because we're having to go through stuff we haven't even looked at for over 2 years...LOL...why do we keep it you may ask, well...I honestly don't have an answer for that...LOL! For some reason Jax is having a hard time, his body has these bumps all over he looks almost mangy and I don't know why. I have looked up some information on it, trying to find out what it is, and I am thinking that it is flea bites he is allergic or something, but, I can't say for sure, my neighbor said that she gives her dogs benadryl and she gave me some to give to Jax and it has seemed to help some, but I don't know how to stop it from happening if it is fleas...I have put frontline on him and everything, I had a friend tell me that frontline doesn't work on the fleas here but I just needed to feel like I was doing something for poor Jaxy Pup. He runs around like he's trying to get away from something and goes and hides shaking his head and stuff, he acts like he's possessed...I feel so bad for him. I have an apt to go see the vet on the 24th to get him licensed for Cali and also get him chipped, but until then I don't know what to do for him. I hope he doesn't feel really crappy too...I would feel so bad to find out that my dog has some sort of doggy virus and that is why he hasn't eaten anything today...ugh. Anyhow, the boys both started school today, I almost cried a little when I had to leave Bryen at the Kindergarten class...not because I was leaving him, but because of how happy he was while I was sitting at the window waving at him but as soon as I blew him a kiss and started to back away his face plumetted and he looked like he was going to cry, I felt so bad, I love my little guy. When he came home from school he had a paper that said that he had a "GREAT" first day of school so maybe he is doing really well...for me, he is quite difficult, but...I am guessing that he enjoys school. Anyway, I will talk to you all later, take care :o)

Housing

Well, it looks like we're going to move into military housing at Pt. Mugu. That is not what we wanted to do, but I think at this point it's really our only option and I think it will actually turn out to be good for all of us. We did have an apartment all lined out, we paid a hold fee etc...but RJ found out that he wasn't going to get the housing allowance for California until he checks into his command at Pt. Hueneme on the 18th of September so....we had to figure something else out. The housing office is so nice, they are really going to work with us and only take the amount of BAH we are currently getting for Missouri until RJ checks into his command at Hueneme, I think it is really great that they are going to help me out. Anyway, I just wanted to let you all know what's going on, the lady mentioned a move in date of this Friday the 7th of August but before we can move in I have to set up a date for the household goods to come so we will actually at least have some mattresses to sleep on. Kyle will start school on the 24th so there is another thing that I will have to get all sorted out and stuff once we get there, I think it will come together pretty well though, and I am really happy that we don't have to enroll Kyle in some other school and then transfer him a little after it starts. Anyhow, have a good night, ttyl :o)

California

Here we are, at our friends house in Hanford, CA. RJ goes up to water well school in China Lake tomorrow and leaves us behind for 6 weeks or so for that, also...he is going to be going through the initiation of making Chief and I've heard that it's just terrible and RJ is happy that I won't see it. We sent in an application for an apartment and a check of a hold fee and they're holding it for us to move in on the 12th. RJ won't be done with his school until September and so moving in and unpacking is all up to me....YIPEE! I am thinking that we are going to have to downsize alot of stuff, but we'll be able to make it work, I don't know that we'll be staying in those same apartments for the entire time that we're here in Cali though, it's a year lease and I guess we're moving in while they're running a special so after our year the rent will probably go up...don't want that for sure! I hope that everything goes well of course, it is always nice when things go smoothly. We are just really tired of staying at other people's houses and invading their homes, and traveling, we're just ready to be done already. I don't know what this whole making chief thing is going to do to RJ's career or to the time he will be able to spend home but...that's all a wait and see thing. Anyhow, ya'll take care and I will blog more later. :o)

Still in vernal but we leave here on Tuesday. We think we might have a rental house already we applied and the lady that is managing it said that we should know by yesterday but um the stoopid chick didn't come in yesterday so now we won't know until Monday I'm so aggravated by that anyway I guess we'll see

So here we are in utah. It's really nice to visit family and at the same time we're in route to a place where we'll be living for the next who knows how many years. It's kind of a rough life making friends and then having to leave them behind not knowing if you'll see them again. I do try to keep in touch but it really is not easy to keep in touch with people and at the same time take care of your family, if you haveea family you understand what I'm talking about. Anyway, I guess I'm feeling kind of somber because seeing the drama that is taking place here it makes me want to kind of be back with my friends where the only drama we had there was who's house we were gonna hang at. hehe Anyhow, we have found a house that is for rent in Ventura wherw we're headed and we have sent in applications so we hope that everything goes well with that, we have to wait for our money for the credit checks to get there and then they'll let us know if we're accepted as tenants or not I think it would be so great that would be wonderful, oh and i forgot to say we actually did close on our house on July 15th! Well I bettwr get to bed goodnight :o)

Helloooo

Here I am up late blogging again, it's just one of those things I guess that I am going to do. I just am sitting here thinking of my life and where I came from and just how grateful I am of the family that I have. I am excited to go back to California but at the same time I am nervous about the difference in culture and all of that from this place. The difference may be a bit overwhelming at first, but I have done it before, I think, as life is changing so dramatically for me, I am just thinking about things ALOT! I remember being there in cali before, and loving it, the weather, the just EVERYTHING, but at the same time, it was kind of nerve wracking to live in a place that has such a high crime rate and so many people in such small areas. I'm hopeful that my children will be safe when they go to school and that they will be happy with what friends they can make...and I am hopeful that we will be happier there as well. I just wanted to say a few things about it I guess, and let you all know what I'm thinking about. I'm really, actually, kind of scared...we'll be going back to a battalion and RJ will be deploying again for 6 months, I don't know exactly when he'll be leaving for the first time in 6 years but when he does it will be a very traumatic experience for us all because we are so used to daddy, and husband being home. I think that will be a very difficult thing for me to adjust to, and when we were in battalion before, I had the luxury of being able to pack up and just go home to see my family. Depending on the time of year that RJ will deploy, I won't be able to do that anymore because Kyle is school age now, and Bryen is right there too...I don't know if Bryen will start school this next year because he won't turn 5 until October and the school year starts in August, but...I'm just thinking about everything. Kyle will be in 3rd grade, can you believe it...I'm so nervous...lol...my little guy is growing up so fast, and I can't do anything but watch him grow and try to be the best parent I can. UGh, anyhow...I am starting to ramble, so I will go now, but I will be on again soon..love to you all. :o)

House

Since we listed our house it seems like we haven't been able to sell it for one reason or another and it has been very frustrating. NOW...it seems like all the pieces are starting to fall into place, it's at the last minute and I'm grateful that it seems to be that way at all. Tonight we got a phone call and when RJ got off the phone he asked me "do you want the good news?" I was wary because usually with good news also comes bad...I told him of course I want the good news and he said "we got an offer on the house" this offer makes alot more since than the past one we got and it couldn't have come at a better time. Our realtor came over and we sat down and looked over the paperwork for the offer, and I tell you what, it is a perfect thing. We of course agreed to the offer, and sent our realtor away with signatures giving her the go ahead to tell the people to pursue financing and also whatever else they may need to get this done and to closing. They want to close by July 15, at that time we will still be on the road on our way to Cali where our next duty station will be, but it is such a weight off my shoulders that I can't tell you how grateful I am to everyone who has kept us in your prayers and who have thought of us daily, I do believe that it is about to pay off.

I don't know exactly what time it is now, but you may be asking yourself, why the hell is Beth up blogging at this hour...well, I have been on vicodin for a few months, and I have noticed that when I take it just before I go to bed, it will keep me awake, or I will wake up throughout the night, I don't know why, but...it kinda sucks. Some people may say that vicodin helps them sleep...well...NOT ME! ANYWAY

I am sure that I have informed you guys on what is happening with the car, well....we thought we were going to finally get it back yesterday, but I guess the part didn't get there, and so today...we called to see what was up, I am still driving a rental and RJ talked with someone at GM today to see what the process will be to get us a non-lemon vehicle. I feel like the good comes along with the bad, the car situation BAD...the house situation...at this point GOOD VERY GOOD. For those of you who know me, you can picture me saying this and the face I would make as I say it, and I'm sure you are chuckeling. I am super excited for this offer to go through on the house, not only to be from under it and move on to the next chapter of our Navy career..but also for the people who are going to own the house, it is a very nice home and there is so much that can be done with it. In the end, we won't have made any profit on it, however, we did put alot of hard work and love into what we did to that house, and I can tell you living in it was a great experience. Anyway, I think I am going to try to go to bed and get some sleep. LOVE 2 U ALL! :o)

AND THEN

Okay, so here is what is happening. My car..is still in the shop, I guess what is going to happen is they're going to repair it as best they can for now and we're supposed to be contacted by a guy from gm tech or something like that and we are going to go through the motions of getting a new car for me...I guess...I don't know when or anything, I'm just so frustrated with this whole thing.

We have packed out of our house, and are now staying with a friend "Audra" she is very sweet to let us come in and invade her home like this, I feel like I'm doing a bad job of keeping up with how she would like things, and I don't want to do that because it is important to me that she not feel like she has other people taking over her house. I feel bad for that, last night was a hard night, the boys are sharing the room with the baby and she ended up taking the baby in her room with her so that she wouldn't wake up the boys, but it ended up keeping Audra up all night and then the weather as well! This morning she said next time the baby screams in the night she is just going to leave her because she will fall back asleep and it didn't seem to disturb the boys at all last night. I hope that this works out, it isn't for a long period of time, but if it gets to the point where she has had enough of us we'll just vacate...I hate invading other people. Anyhow, I went in to the empty house yesterday and finished up the kitchen sink, counters and floor and that was all that was left to do in the upstairs...we still have a few things above where the washer and dryer were that we have to go get, and also there is some stuff we have to take care of in the garage...but overall the house is vacated, I just wish that there was already a plan for someone else to move in...I loved that house, but I will be sooooo glad to offload it to someone else. Anyhow, I better get going, Kyle keeps coming in to tell me about MarioKart on the wii, and even though I don't really care, I know he won't stop coming in here until I go in there. ONE QUESTION...why do kids think they have to yell at each other to get the message across??? Ugh!

Empty House

Oh, well, the house is empty, and it's amazing how well you can see ALL of the imperfections once it gets that way, we have quite a bit to do and...we don't know when it will be shown next. I forgot to take Bryen to his Ear Nose and Throat doctors appointment today, they are talking about his tonsils being HUGE...I did tell the doc it runs in the family but he said it can cause sleep apnea...I wonder if I have that and it's why I'm always so freakin' tired. Anyway, I am kind of basketcase right now, and I'm going a million miles a minute with all that is happening in my life...and yet...the house remains...in LIMBO, as always...I guess at least that is one other thing besides my family that is a constant, I'm going nutzo people, RJ is always worried about me having a nervous breakdown when we go through stuff like this, you have to admit, moving can be traumatizing...you get comfortable where you are, and then...WHAMO, you gotta move again! Anyway, take care I'll ttyall later more :o)

MOVING

Okay, so here are the packers, here in my bedroom and the kitchen packing up our stuff...it's kind of crazy here...not really alot of people running around or anything but...I mean in my brain, making sure that I kept everything I'm going to need. I am just sitting here watching as all of our stuff is packed up into boxes getting ready to be shipped.

Our "NEW" car that was used as a demo is still in the shop, there is something really wrong with it, they've already ordered the parts but the parts won't be here until tomorrow and then once they get those they'll get going on fixing it. I just wonder when we're going to get my car back and if we're going to be able to get all the stuff that we have kept to move ourselves will fit in the back of RJ's truck and my car, it's just another thing on top of everything else that is kind of stressing me. Anyhow, Bryen is being pretty whiney right now, I think part of it is certainly that he doesn't completely understand why there are strange people in the house packing up everything. Kyle started crying this morning about not being able to take all of his stuff with him, it's confusing and all of that, I guess I really didn't prepare myself for the fact that the move wasn't going to only affect me. RJ was asking me if I'm handeling everything okay yesterday because when we moved back to the states I was freaking once we got back here because of the major change in our financial situation, I wasn't sure if we were going to be able to make it with how much we had gotten used to all of the money that we were getting in Iceland. We have definately made it work, but, it's frustrating not having this house sold, it complicates things quite a bit. After we go on leave and see all of our family on our way to california for RJ's school in August...well...Kyle has to start school..school in california I guess starts in August and so...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I was thinking if the house isn't sold that I'm going to have to come back here...it's really not what I want to do but...I guess we'll just kind of roll with the punches. Pray our house sells will ya, they are going to show it tomorrow. OK, I'm going to go now so that I don't repeat myself...a little loopy with all that's going on around here...love to you all :o) ttyl :o)

Oh My

Yes, it has been a while, I am not slacking on my priority responsibilities but I am most certainly am on my internet mumbo jumbo. I thought I'd write a quickie not to let you know, we are being packed out next week, it's a crazy whirlwind that I find myself and my family in at the moment, our house isn't sold yet, otherwise I'm sure that would make for more of an at ease mindset at least as far as once we're done with the whole move bit. I am just overwhelmed right now, I have all of this move stuff coming up, all the while I need to keep the place clean and orderly for showings...JUST IN CASE...and then there's the issue with the car that I bought just recently. It was a demo, but it was still considered new because of where the mileage was on it, so I loved it and bought it, but now, I am wondering how great an idea that was, we are of course in a different financial situation making payments on a second vehicle, but on top of that...oh boy...my car has had issues twice now, and we've had it less than 2 months...WE GOT A DUD...I picked the wrong car this time. The first time it was in the shop was for the AC it gets bloody hot here...and this time, well...it's totally effed this time...we got in it to go for a small trip and when RJ put it into reverse it made this loud sound (maybe my siblings remember how mom and dad's mini van sounded when the transmission was going?) anyway, that is the sound it made and so he put it into park and tried one more time and it did it again, so...of course we took the truck instead, didn't want to drive it like that. They towed it Monday, and it is still in the shop today, Friday, and I'm driving a rental they gave me, and I'm afraid, these issues are not as small as the AC not working, it's not good, not good at all. When the service guy says we had to order partssss plural, not just a part, that definately isn't good. I'm just in general, F.I.N.E (Freaked,Insecure,Neurotic, and Emotional) That is the general good coverage of my status at this point. UGH, anyway, tty laters

BRYEN!!!!

That's what my brain is screaming right now...BRYEN!!!!! He stopped up the toilet, with I don't know what, but usually when you plunge a toilet the water starts to go down...OH NO, not with Bryen being the sabotuer...the water kept coming up and up and spilling over on to the floor. Luckily a few days ago, we bought some of those "
Sham-Wow" shammies, that has to have been one of the best purchases we have ever made. I was sopping up water all over the place, the bathroom was flooded, I was screaming at Bryen to get in his room...but, you might be proud of me, I did not spank him...I just verbally chastised him. I can't believe that he would do something like this at this stage in his life..I know he's not the only child to have stopped up a toilet and made it overflow, but the thing is...I don't know when it's going to stop with him. He will be 5 in October, there have been times when I have thought that maybe there is something developmentally delayed with him, but he's very smart...there are just so many parts of the human brain, I may have to have him tested if it comes right down to it and he just doesn't stop this destructive and confusing behavior. I don't know what is average for a 4 year old, maybe I'm not stimulating him enough, I'm sure that is a big part of it, but W T F...I'm really at the end of my rope and I have nowhere to go so I'm panicking and freaking out...I mean, I'm already on medication for anxiety, I was anxious before we had kids, and then having a child like Bryen, I just can't seem to catch a break. UGH, I'm just really frustrated right now, I was so relieved when the toilet finally started making sounds of water flow and then water went down...then I went through the house and flushed all the toilets and cleaned up the floor...but seriously...what a way to start the day...it's only 10. Just royally erks me. Now...Bryen is chilling in his dad's chair, just watching "Dragon Tales" and acting as though nothing happened. I'm at a complete loss...I hope that this does subside before to long. Anyway, I will blog more later, I just had to get some of that frustration out immediately or I was gonna snap. When I told RJ's dad the other day of the antics Bryen is up to on a daily basis, he laughed and said sarcastically "I don't know where he gets THAT from" hmmm...RJ?! Of course you know that RJ would never cop to being a little pain in the butt when he was younger, but...this is really driving me insane. I love the little guy, I love him to death...I'm just at a loss with what to do with him sometimes. ttyl :o)

Hello

Well, long time no blog...I know, I know! I have a hard time keeping up with all of the places that I have to go on the internet every day, my email, my myspace, my cafe mom, my facebook, my blogspot...YIKES man, it takes all day to just the first couple of those. Anyway, we are still trying to sell the house, at least it's on the market, and we have had a few showings, I am kind of freaking out a bit about keeping the place up to snuff for when they call and say that they would like to show the house, I feel like if it's not really picked up nicely, then it will be a major turn off for potential buyers. Anyway, I feel like with Bryen, I am having such a hard time because he is so busy all of the time. I'm sure things will work out it's just kind of frustrating at this point.

When I was going through all of the issues with the pancreatitis and that, they found a mass on one of my ovaries when they did a ct scan on me. I didn't really notice any pains or anything related to that, but since they found it they had to follow it. I have been having ultra sound after ultra sound and seen the gyn doc a few times and just recently they had said well, either we can do surgery, or we can try another alternative to see if it will help. I decided to not do surgery and try taking out the IUD I had and going on the pill to try and stop ovulation, they said that was the reason for having cysts so...I guess it's just kind of a wait and see, in about 6 weeks I am going to have ANOTHER ultra sound to see if things have resolved, if they haven't, I don't really know what the next step is. The doc said that she thought they were just due to ovulation so in her opinion they will clear up with my being on the pill. I guess maybe that could be a little to much information for some people who might read this, but I'm just sharing...lol. One thing that is very disconcerting here...in the past 2 weeks there have been 2 deaths of soldiers @ Fort Leonard Wood that have somehow gotten infected with meningitis...it is scary, but they keep saying it isn't contagious and all of that, but there are still 2 guys that have died from the same thing. Anyway, that is quite concerning, the symptoms are similar to a regular ear infection so it's hard to tell and Kyle yesterday was having a fever, a headache, and this morning he vomited I was really worried, when normally I wouldn't be so super concerned but because of this stuff I of course thought of that. Anyway, I hope you're all good and I'll tty more later.

Selling House

We're trying to sell the house, we have had 2 showings so far, the last showing we had I was just getting ready to leave the house when they pulled up into the front drive, so....I had my coat on and the realtor saw me and said, "oh you don't have to leave hun" so I was like...well...okay then. I don't know how interested the girl that she was showing the house to was...but, I am hopeful that someone will totally bite, it's a nice house! Anyhow, I just had to share that little piece of info :O)