Helloooo

Here I am up late blogging again, it's just one of those things I guess that I am going to do. I just am sitting here thinking of my life and where I came from and just how grateful I am of the family that I have. I am excited to go back to California but at the same time I am nervous about the difference in culture and all of that from this place. The difference may be a bit overwhelming at first, but I have done it before, I think, as life is changing so dramatically for me, I am just thinking about things ALOT! I remember being there in cali before, and loving it, the weather, the just EVERYTHING, but at the same time, it was kind of nerve wracking to live in a place that has such a high crime rate and so many people in such small areas. I'm hopeful that my children will be safe when they go to school and that they will be happy with what friends they can make...and I am hopeful that we will be happier there as well. I just wanted to say a few things about it I guess, and let you all know what I'm thinking about. I'm really, actually, kind of scared...we'll be going back to a battalion and RJ will be deploying again for 6 months, I don't know exactly when he'll be leaving for the first time in 6 years but when he does it will be a very traumatic experience for us all because we are so used to daddy, and husband being home. I think that will be a very difficult thing for me to adjust to, and when we were in battalion before, I had the luxury of being able to pack up and just go home to see my family. Depending on the time of year that RJ will deploy, I won't be able to do that anymore because Kyle is school age now, and Bryen is right there too...I don't know if Bryen will start school this next year because he won't turn 5 until October and the school year starts in August, but...I'm just thinking about everything. Kyle will be in 3rd grade, can you believe it...I'm so nervous...lol...my little guy is growing up so fast, and I can't do anything but watch him grow and try to be the best parent I can. UGh, anyhow...I am starting to ramble, so I will go now, but I will be on again soon..love to you all. :o)