Results...and then

Hey everyone, I got my results, on Wednesday the 12th, sorry, I'm such a slacker. The results for the ultra sounds were that everything innard that I have minus the ovary(i don't think I spelled that right)with the cyst is absolutely fine. When they told me originally that I had pancreatitis, that was in fact not even completely true because when they had done the CT scan that night it showed that there was absolutely nothing going on with the pancreas, so I don't know why my amilase and lypase were elevated but...anyway...there is more to the story. REGARDLESS of the results and them telling me that I'm fine, I am in pain...I don't like to be in pain, and I have told them that I am in pain. When I saw the "practitioner" that told me there was nothing wrong and that cysts are a normal occurance in women (LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW THAT) I just chaulked it up to me being over sensitive...so I took that and went home. Luckily before I went and saw that "practitioner" I had tried to get ahold of my actual PCM and so...shortly after I got home from being told there was no problem...my PCM called me and told me she had taken a look at my results and that my cyst was larger than they like to see so they would like to keep and eye on it...UGH...I do not like getting different stories specially when it comes to MY health...not cool! ANYWAY, I went to the ER again yesterday, I sat there for hours in pain, and they did all these tests to see if they could figure out why I am having pain, and nothing is abnormal, my blood count is good, which I am happy to hear, but I still wanna know why I'm in pain. They're sending me to a Gastroenternologist, I don't know when, or if they're even going to actually put that referral in the computer. At this point, I'm kind of just really ready to GIVE UP and just deal with the pain, it's alot easier than trying to deal with people who don't seem to care wether you live or die. UGH...I know that isn't really true, but I just get so frustrated. Anyhow, so now I have Vicodin to take, and Ibuprofen, and am waiting for a phone call from the referral office for when my apt with the Gastro doc will be. I appreciate you keeping tabs on me Ramanda, you're a sweetie pie and a good friend! I will try to do better as far as keeping you up to date. OH, the fact that everything came back normal in my blood and all of that is definately a good thing though eh?! :O) ttyl

HEYA

Yea, I had my ultra sounds, and I still don't have the results...I'm calling all day today to see if I can get an apt to get the results from which ever doc I can get in to see, THIS IS REDICULOUS! I get the impression that they just don't care about me, no compassion, whatever, I'm sure that is false but, how else am I supposed to feel when no one seems to be willing to help me, and I'm only one person you know. UGH, I'm so frustrated right now I could just SPIT! Anyway, my work called and said that if I felt good enough to come in for a couple of short days this week in the office I could do that, and so I am going to be going in tomorrow and the next day to do some office stuff and I'm just PRAYING, that I can get a phone call from someone at the hospital with something...I hate waiting and most of all I hate not knowing what is going on, last night I was doing the dishes and about fell over with a shooting searing pain in my upper abdomen, and I was having a hard time breathing and RJ was about to flip out because he was yelling "WHAT'S WRONG" and I couldn't answer because I couldn't get a big enough breath in to talk to him...NOT GOOD! I am like...c'mon people, it's not like I'm gonna die, but it doesn't mean it's any less important! I just wanted to get ya'll an update, if you're even following this...sheesh..hehe, ttyl :O)

Ultra Sounds

OK, well, I went to have my ultra sounds today, the first I had to stop eating and drinking at 12 the night before, so I was really thirsty by the time we finished...this one was upper abdomen area looking for galstones. The others were checking out the mass that was on my uterus that they found in the CT scan. So, in all likliness the mass is just a cyst, but what if....you know. Anyhow, at this point, after having all of these ultra sounds done in the same day, the results will not be accessible until TUESDAY, and I am at this point, still not working and just sitting by and waiting. The hospital here is so understaffed they say "due to deployments bla bla bla" they are working on the problem, until there, we're SCREWED! I don't know if I'm going to be able to get an apt to find out the results of my ultra sound but I'm just really wondering if they even stop to think that maybe there may be a reason that this person would like to know...you know...like because maybe their health might be kind of important to them...you know. UGH, anyway, I could go to the ER again, my ear has been aching for the past two days and it is really really ouchie, what's wierd, is RJ's ear is bothering him really badly too, and it's the same ear as mine...STRANGE BUSINESS! Anyhow, RJ said he's not gonng go sit in the ER for hours on end for an ear ache, I say to hell with it, that's what they're there for.....UGH! Well, I'm frustrated because I haven't been working and that is going to leave us at a shortge of funds, but actually, I think it's good that we can see if we are able to handle things without me working because...I'll explain that to you.

I was at work the last day I worked before I got sick...Thursday August 28th, when on the clinic I must have been feeling bad without realizing it cuz when the doctor decided he was going to get frustrated with me and act on that frustration by talking down to me, I started to cry, not right in front of him of course, but it really was totally uncalled for and there are much much better ways to go about things than the way he chose to deal with it. Anyway, I cried, got over that and went through the rest of the day doing the best that I could, in the meantime of course in the back of my mind I am thinking, I NEED A NEW JOB, because seriously, when you feel like you have an tense work enviornment, it doesn't make for a good day EVER! UGH, let me tell you what happened, it kind of sounds trivial, which is why I think I may have been starting to get sick because normally I wouldn't have cried at this, I just would have gotten pissed. Anyway, usually when I'm on the clinic doing cleanings etc. the Dr comes and looks at the kids mouths and then you go from there, sometimes he does it before you clean them, and sometimes he does it after you clean them, first thing you do, is take x rays if they're needed. Anyway, he came over and I hadn't gotten to the cleaning part yet, so I asked him, would you like me to clean her teeth...then right there in front of the patient, he looked at me...of course with annoyance, and said "WHAT DO WE DO...WE TAKE THE X RAYS AND THEN I COME AND LOOK AT THEIR TEETH AND THEN WE GO FROM THERE" I was like...WHAT THE HELL! I wish that I hadn't cried though, it just makes me look weak, and I'm no weakling...I just think he shouldn't have done that in front of the patient and then no apology or anything, just rediculous. ANYWAY, I'm over it, I have been looking for a new job, after buying all these scrubs and stuff, I'm hoping that I can get on as a dental assistant somewhere else, with someone who is less likely to get upset with me and has patience and is willing to train me. I have been emailing a guy back and forth about possible job interview, here in St. Robert, where I live which would be GREAT, closer to home and less for gas and also it would be on a daily basis not just 3 days a week or so. I am so ready to be done with this wishy washy do one thing one way one minute and then change their minds and decide to do it differently the next minute, it's just outright frustrating and a really lousy working enviornment. Sometimes I feel like I'm on eggshells, and then with something so small as a question is deemed to warrant a response such as the one the Dr gave me, I am ready to move on to something else. Anyway, UGH, I didn't really want to go into all of that, but I guess it is a better way for you to feel the frustration and now to know why it is happening. My schedule at this job has never been more than 3 days in a week, and my position is classified as "Irregular Part Time" and so I guess that means that I'm expendable....I don't know, Dorothy has gone as far as to call me their utility worker, which I guess I should take as a compliment, meaning I can do everything and I am flexible, but....seriously, when I am "supposedly" doing such a good job and they ask me why I am late but then they say they understand some things because they knew I had kids when they hired me...WHAT THE HELL IS THAT...I MEAN...SERIOUSLY PEOPLE! Anyway, I'm ready for something steady, and when I'm actually doing the assisting on a daily basis I will get good. I was talking to someone about going through the class that they offer for dental assisting on the post here, and they said that one of their friends did it, and when they got a job after they finished certifying, it was like they had never taken the course at all, it was like starting all over again because they felt like they were learning the stuff all over again, so I'm thinking that the way I'm learning is a little better, but you do have to have fundamentals that I don't quite have down yet, however, I have office experience etc as well as the assisting, so I'm pretty well qualified I'd say. Anyway, ya'll take care, I'm gonna stop nagging now, ttyl :O)

A Day In The Life

So, I got in to see the doc, she said that I "DON'T" have gall stones. I can't help thinking that is funny cuz when I was in the ER originally they said that I had to get an ultra sound to tell if I had gall stones..things that make you go hmmm. I am feeling much better, after having two bags of IV fluid put into me on Monday. I went to the doc on Tuesday and that is when she told me that, and also a few other things, bla bla bla, doctor mumbo jumbo, and then she ordered the ultra soundSSS yes...plural. I figured they would have ordered the ultra sounds that I needed from the ER, but I guess NOT! I could not get the ultra sounds scheduled until Friday September 12th, and until then I'm out of work because they don't want me to come into work and have an episode while I'm there...safety and legal reprocussions avoided. I am still having sharp pains here and there in my abdomen, but I am eating actual food again. ANYWAY...on to other things, cuz right now it's just a waiting game until we can find out more.

I have changed from one garbage company to another one that is just moving into our area, because they have ONE big trash can with wheels and a lid that can't be knocked off by raccoons. We were having alot of trouble with animals coming and getting into our trash before, and now it's not a problem...HOWEVER, I got my first bill from them intending it to be a certain amount, they told me ahead of time that I would only be charged for 2 months, one thing they didn't tell me is that they charge for GAS..WHAT?! I didn't know what the heck that was and it really ticked me off so I called them and asked about it and they told me that everyone has to pay that. When I was getting ready to sign up with them initially, I had told some friends about it, how cool I thought it was and everything, and then, I get this bill...by the time I got this bill, one of my friends I had told about it had already signed up with them and pre paid 3 months in advance...anyhow...when I told her about the gas surcharge, she was stunned because she didn't have to pay it...I was like..WHAT? I decided that I was going to give the questioning of the company another go, and I told them that I have a friend that signed up with them just recently because I had told her about them and that she doesn't have to pay the gas surcharge, and I was wondering why...so guess what, I don't have the charge anymore...LOL. I think it's rediculous though that they did not say, there is a fee for the gas that will be used in the trucks when they come to pick up your trash, I was really unhappy, and it is only a small amount, but all in all, it makes a difference, and I did no intend to have that there and one of the main reasons I signed up in the first place was that it was going to be a little cheaper than the company we were with before, even with the rental of their trash can. I'm pretty stoked about how that turned out. Anyhow, it's silly, but I have to do something around here that makes me feel accomplished. ttyl :O)

Pancreatitis

Yea, that's what I have. They told me that on Friday, and I had to drink some gross stuff they called contrast to see what was going on inside my body, and then I had a ct scan and then they put me on a liquid diet, and then yesterday I went back in to get IV fluids because I was dehydrated. Now I have a HUGE bruise on my arm from where this kid who OBVIOUSLY wasn't good at taking blood and what not tried to get a vein for the IV. I am so frustrated, today they are supposed to call me to get an ultrasound to see if I have gall stones that caused the pancreatitis or what UGH! Anyhow, wanted to let you all know what's goin on! ttyl